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Name: Steven
Birthday: 9/22/1977
Gender: Male
Interests: Davidic (Hebrew) dance in worship, outdoors, camping, feasting
Expertise: my dad always said that I was a Jack of All and Master of None...but ministering to people in need of help is where I fit in
Occupation: Servant
Industry: Work of Yahweh
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Website: visit my website
Member Since:
7/24/2006
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| This weeks article for the fellowship's bulletin...sorry that it is not any longer than this or a little more exciting...I had to go through a little fire for this one. Shalom Family, How's life? For me,the past couple of weeks have been a most interesting struggle/battle and time of learning. For those that didn't know, I took a nasty little fall at work and got to stay home for the past two weeks. Not that I have enjoyed it, 'cause I haven't. So, here at home, depending on others for things, I've had to rest and keep the brain occupied. NOT a good thing. So, I've laid up in bed and read allot (I really don't like to do that much), played on the internet and found myself addicted to a new thing called "Myspace." Well, new for me. Honestly, it's a very awesome website, but with the good, there is also the bad. I found myself having to watch the videos for several reasons, but I couldn't get away from it. Maybe it was the Vicodin, I don't know. Yahweh used whatever means He had to, in order that I would have to deal with my weakness. My spirit is wounded and I had to wrestle with this for several days. Finally, while reading scripture and also a book "Boy Meets Girl", Father gave me peace. That is more real than the addictions faced. Alright, so I'm human. How about the lesson that has been even harder for me and I still am struggling through? This is gonna sound terrible. You guys have no idea how hard this one is for me. You ready? I have a HUGE problem with letting others help me. No, not your petty "Can you get that off the shelf for me" kind of problem. It's more like the "Brother, I need a shoulder to lean on" kind of problem. Surprised? This is a much deeper problem in my life than the first mentioned problem above. I have some serious trust issues that have been coming up since Sukkot. You know what I heard when I fell off of the loader? "You don't have a choice now." This little bit of having to let others drive me around, yeah it's kinda humiliating, but it ain't nothin' but a little bit. It's just a physical lesson for the spiritual season for me. If you will recall, in the bulletin before Sukkot, I mentioned the seasons that Yahweh takes me through after every Sukkot. Well, it's revealed. Trust. I now know what lesson for the season between the feasts of Sukkot that I am going to go through. The day after Sukkot, I was resting (sort of) and I had a dream. A really freaky dream. In it I got hung up on a wall by my wrist-bands on my left hand. In the dream there were two bands, the same one that I am wearing on my left wrist even now, "SUKKOT 2006 LAKE MURRAY." Without details of the dream I was running from the enemy when this happened and after being hung up, I ran to where the spiritual brothers were. What's the big deal? The bands represent something and they are trust and the prayers of the body. In the past couple of weeks, I've had to humble myself and allow the family to pray over me. But, I had to make the choice to ask with the exception where one person told me of their desire to pray and the spirit moved. Here's a couple of questions for the body: (1) What is Yahweh needing the body to do in coming together in reliance of one another. (2) What is Yahweh needing YOU to do in coming together with the body for reliance. Family, I love you. First of all I love Yahweh my heavenly Father. If Yahweh needs me to come to my family for help, I'm gonna have to do it. It's humbling to me. Family, this also is where the accountability is, because you too have to come together. This IS a two way street. It's not a season just for me, it's a season that we all have to learn, we just are given different assignments for the classes. Don't push the Shepherd to breaking your leg (or wounding it) to get you to a place of submission. I'm at the very beginning of this lesson (because I refused to get the hint over the past couple years), hopefully I won't push Him to have to give me another object lesson. Lehitraot Chaverim, Naz PS I go back to work this week...light duty only ie machinery operation, no labor. | | |
| Hey everyone, I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a while, but I just haven't been able to get to it. I did write an article for the ministry's newsletter and so, here it is. I hope that you all can get a little something out of it and that it blesses you in some way. Shalom Chaverim, How's life been since Sukkot? Was everyone blessed during the feast? I know that I was. Not that I necessarily felt that way. Really. For the first time in my years following in the Hebrew lifestyle, I'm not sure what the blessings were yet. Understand me, I know I was blessed, I don't know how yet. The days leading up to Sukkot, I had the privilege of going up and coming home the next morning for work. I went back to Oklahoma that night and again went to work the next morning to return once again for the weekend (sat evening and Sunday). I soon found myself enjoying the fellowship and dance and prayed for the time off for the first day of Sukkot, to no avail, I had to go anyways. Daily I traveled to and from the park for work, after all, I was NOT going to allow work to steal from me Sukkot and therefore found it necessary to travel the full 228 miles per day. Was it all worth it? ABSOLUTELY! Why? I don't know. Yes, I enjoyed the fellowship. Yes, having time outdoors was healthy for the mind, body and spirit. Family, I haven't been this stressed in a long while. I never relaxed, I never rested my body (yeah I slept, but I didn't get rest), I never got to just leave the cares of life and work at home or in the "Civilized" world. I had to go and face all the things that would normally be left behind every day. I stayed home fri night since I had work at 3 in the morning the next day and then went back for the rest of the weekend and actually was able to stay for the Last Great Day. At that point this was the only day that Yahweh allowed me to stay at the feast for what normally would have been a work day. Stressed out. That's how I felt by the end of the feast. It should have been the other way around, at least in my perception of things. I had a break down, I needed it and felt some release for a little while, but that only lasted for a short while as pressure was on and work the next day was miserable. Ok, I know that at this point everything sounds pretty terrible. Well, it seemed this way for me too. Actually, I have peace about it all now. I still don't understand, but I have peace. After coming home I was attacked (spiritually) and some things were brought to light. (1) As much as I don't have to like it...Everything is in Yahweh's perfect timing. (2) I have to rely on the body more (3) I don't have to like that either (4) This means I have to learn to trust those in the body more (5) Tough cookies Family, I have because of my woundedness become hard in some areas. They deal directly with trust issues. What better way to have to deal with these than to allow me to become so stressed that I can't see straight? Really. Now I am having to allow those around me to lift me up a little bit, and I really don't like it...It's humiliating to me. Shabbat, a week after Sukkot, Yahweh really moved in my spirit. I don't know what happened, but it was after asking for prayer and the family stepped up that I felt relief. Last night Sam and I went to a youth rally and conference called "Revolution '06." It was great to just be there and hear a message given and really let the words sink in. There was worship and praise that set in, but the best thing that I heard took all of 10 minutes out of the 4 hours. To sum up what I heard was this: "Seperate from the body and you die." The family is here to surround and protect, exactly what I am having to learn right now. EXACTLY. Was Sukkot a blessing? Absolutely. Do I have to understand what's happening? No. What do I need to do? Trust and learn to allow family to hold me up. I had a dream and in it I was held up totally by the body in prayer and trust. Maybe in my trials others will gain. Maybe Yahweh knows what He's doing. Maybe I shouldn't be bothered by not knowing what to expect and just let Father do what He's gonna do. My ways are not your ways...my thoughts...your thoughts... Lehitraot chaverim, Naz | | |
| Shalom Everyone, Ya'll ready for Sukkot? I am. This is the big shin-dig of feasts. Yahweh always has something new for me in my walk, a season if you will, that comes up right about this time. Or at least I realize at this time. Speaking of time, does anyone ever feel like their prayers aren't answered? You know, I often feel that Father just doesn't hear me. That's terrible huh? Well, I'm sorry, but I'm human. I know that's a HUGE surprise for most of you, but it's true. Maybe it's not that he isn't hearing me though, or you either for that matter. Maybe it's something much simpler than this...Something not quite so, well, desperate? Matthew 7:7-11 7 " Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. 8 "For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened. 9 "Or what man is there among you who, if his son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 "Or if he asks for a fish, will he give him a serpent? 11 "If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him! 1 Peter 5:6-11 6 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of Elohim, that He may exalt you in due time, 7 casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you. 8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. 9 Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. 10 But may the Elohim of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Messiah Yahshua, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. 11 To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen. Did you catch that? Ok, Yahweh is gonna answer you. That doesn't mean right then and there, but in His DUE TIME. That's Yahweh's will, to give you your heart's desire, not a snake when you ask for a fish. We have to understand that all things are in His timing. I recently was praying, I told Father that sometimes I felt like He just didn't hear me. You know what? He did. In one single day at a later time, I had answers to several issues that I haven't prayed about in a long while. I clearly heard Father saying to me, "You see, it's in MY timing." James 1:2-5 2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of Elohim, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. 1 John 5:14-15 14 Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 15 And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him. When I asked, it was His will. When he answered, it was in His timing. Lehitraot Chaverim, Naz | | |
| Good morning everyone, Well Sukkot is right around the corner! For me, this is the time I look forward to every year. Yahweh uses this time to lead me in other directions at this time spiritually and open my eyes to new things around Sukkot. This wouldn't be possible though without the preparation leading to the feast. Yom Taruah, a time to anounce the coming of Yeshua a litteral time of the blowing of "Trumpets" or the the shofar. Leviticus 23:24-25 24 "Speak to the children of Israel, saying: 'In the seventh month, on the first day of the month, you shall have a sabbath-rest, a memorial of blowing of trumpets, a holy convocation. 25 'You shall do no customary work on it; and you shall offer an offering made by fire to YAHWEH.' " Matthew 24:36 " But of that day and hour no one knows, not even the angels of heaven, but My Father only. This is believed to be a direct refference to the Feast of Trumpets and the answer to the riddle of when Yeshua returns...like "Turkey Day" everyone knows here in the US that this is Thanksgiving. Leviticus 23:26-27 26 And YAHWEH spoke to Moses, saying: 27 "Also the tenth day of this seventh month shall be the Day of Atonement. It shall be a holy convocation for you; you shall afflict your souls, and offer an offering made by fire to YAHWEH. Now here is a day of preparing yourself tilling up the soil and making ready your life for what Yahweh is going to do in your life. Before you can go and celebrate Sukkot, we have a time of National Repentence. Everyone great and small spends the whole day with Yahweh. Some will go as far as not eating or drinking in a time of fasting for this entire day. In repentence to the Father, often people become aware of wrong doing to others and repent to them as well. It's an awesome thing to stop and take a look into your life, difficult as it may be, the ground is made fertile again. How many times have we wanted to enjoy something, and find that we have to work for it? What in life is absolutely free where there is no work required. Yahweh does not intend for us to sit back and let life happen. We have to work at just about everything in order for those things we desire most to come to fruition in our lives. Isaiah 40:3 3 The voice of one crying in the wilderness: "Prepare the way of YAHWEH; Make straight in the desert A highway for our Elohim. Even the coming of Yahweh is to be prepared. Take the next few weeks ahead of you and truly meditate on what in our lives needs to be pruned. What part of your life needs to be tilled up and in what areas of your life do you truly need to be repenting? Yahweh is going to Tabernacle with us...let's prepare for that awesome time. Lehitraot Chaverim, Naz | | |
| Article for the Olive Branch Ministries newsletter...
Good Morning Ya'll!
I hope all has gone well for everyone this week. Work life for me has had highs and lows this week overall leaving me a bit on the tired side. And ya know, of course the spiritual side to that is, that it was a ROUGH week. It shouldn't be that way though. Things get tough and we should be able to pull closer to Father. Sometimes that's easier to say than to do.
So what about you? Do you pull in closer or distance yourselves from everything? You know that He is there, and you know that all you gotta do is to pray...but what is easiest for the flesh? Sit in the muck and mire as we sulk in our problems around us and the next thing you know, there's another person in the same puddle of mud you're in. Here's a picture for you:
These earthly bodies that we inhabbit, they're made of dust. DIRT! Just add water and the breath of life...ok, now what happens to a clod of dirt you leave in a puddle of mud? IT BECOMES MUD TOO!
Job 4:12-21 12 " Now a word was secretly brought to me, And my ear received a whisper of it. 13 In disquieting thoughts from the visions of the night, When deep sleep falls on men, 14 Fear came upon me, and trembling, Which made all my bones shake. 15 Then a spirit passed before my face; The hair on my body stood up. 16 It stood still, But I could not discern its appearance. A form was before my eyes; There was silence; Then I heard a voice saying: 17 'Can a mortal be more righteous than Elohim? Can a man be more pure than his Maker? 18 If He puts no trust in His servants, If He charges His angels with error, 19 How much more those who dwell in houses of clay, Whose foundation is in the dust, Who are crushed before a moth? 20 They are broken in pieces from morning till evening; They perish forever, with no one regarding. 21 Does not their own excellence go away? They die, even without wisdom.'
Proverbs 9:9-10 9 Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; Teach a just man, and he will increase in learning. 10 "The fear of YAHWEH is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Set Apart One is understanding.
So what would the wise thing to do be in the cases of hard times? Don't let it get to you right? Right. Maybe we're striving for too much here, but think about it, if you have fear (reverence, respect) of Yahweh, then what should a little matter of hard times be? What else REALLY matters? Ok, now before you just get mad, I'm human too. Just so you know, I don't make the right choices either...in fact, mix difficult times with lack of sleep and 9 times out of 10, I'm gonna mess things up. Just ask someone who has or does live with me.
Isaiah 40:26-31 26 Lift up your eyes on high, And see who has created these things, Who brings out their host by number; He calls them all by name, By the greatness of His might And the strength of His power; Not one is missing. 27 Why do you say, O Jacob, And speak, O Israel: "My way is hidden from YAHWEH, And my just claim is passed over by my El"? 28 Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting Elohim, YAHWEH, The Creator of the ends of the earth, Neither faints nor is weary. His understanding is unsearchable. 29 He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength. 30 Even the youths shall faint and be weary, And the young men shall utterly fall, 31 But those who wait on YAHWEH Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.
Did you see that? Those who wait on YAHWEH will have renewed strength. He'll give that to us. So the jist of this little problematic week was: forget everything else but YAHWEH whom you fear and no other and He'll give you the strength that you need. In other words; RELAX, take a deep breath, it'll be alright.
Proverbs 17:3 3 The refining pot is for silver and the furnace for gold, But YAHWEH tests the hearts.
Our Father, thank you for the tough times that we must endure. If it were not for those, then we wouldn't be made to withstand the furnace that pulls the dross. Help us to endure and breathe your life into our weary bodies. Amen.
Lehitraot Chaverim,
Naz | | |
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